Saturday, March 26, 2005
my brain wouldnt work
words wont come out
all i wanna do is to curl up in the infant position and die.
i wanna talk, but i cant. if i worked up i wouldnt be able to breathe, okay..?? okay, if i breathed too much i would then get hyperventilation but thats not the point.
but like what he'd said.. i do have to find a solution soon.
school is stressful.
school work is stressing me totally
i cant let my parents down, no, i cant
time is running out
im racing against it like any other bean
but im losing and
things are on the top of my head now
ive had a bad week
all i know
is to sleep
run
hide
disappear
die
all i do now is stare into blank air, let my tears take center stage. and when im sick of thinking about reality i go back to sleep.
what have i done, why have things gone like that and what is gonna happen next?
im in the mood to kill
how does it feel like, to lose your sanity, your mind, your right to live? goooood.
now, how does it feel like to ruin someone else? ><
hmmm. you did it thrice, are u aware of it?
you're.... worthless. totally.
AND READ MY NICKNAME ON MSN, IT MEANS, GET LOST IN SHORT. NOT "TALK TO ME, IM USING REVERSE PSYCHOLOGY TO GET ATTENTION"
xoxo
joce-lyn
6:56 PM
